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I cant let him go. ever miss a pet so much and it hurts?

thinking how much I miss my baby boy Cena,He was more like my child then anything he was so spoiled lol. He was sweet,cuddly,loveable,and a little terror but you couldnt stay mad at him for long. Because he would give you those big green eyes that are saying sorry. I miss him alot and sometimes its hard to express to say how I am feeling. I gusse I will never know what was wrong because he never showed any signs of being sick bc if i knew he I would of took him to a vet. He scared the heck out of me, because I didnt know what was wrong and he started making these crazy noises and I was home and i also had my cousin with me. Somebody came over to help me out. Then My aunt finally came over before she went to work, And I was crying soooo bad. I just couldnt stop and I actully thought i wasnt going to stop. I am blaming myself. But my aunt told me not to blame myself.That Cena had a good life and he was treated well and he had sooooo much love. He was a little cena fan cause i made him to be one lol.. Its still hard for me to let that moment when he passed away out of my head because that was my baby and he will always be my babyy boy. I know he is in a better place. And that he is up in heaven and looking over me, roscoe and his daddy and his 7mth old baby sister. who is Bailey Marie Cena. I show her pics of her big brother. And everytime I see Bailey sleeping or playing all wild up it makes me think of Cena all the time.And it hurts me alot cause I wish I could bring Cena back.When he passed away. I hardly smile or I can be happy then when I start thinking of my baby tears come to my eyes. I will never be able to say bye.Cause one day I will see him again.I When Cena died he was about 2 and half years old,Yes I know he was young. When I look at pics of my baby boy it brings back all the memories that I had with him.He was like the best cat I ever had. Now, I got Bailey she is my lil girl. And she gets alot of LOVE!!!! She knows she had a older brother who is up in heaven. Idk what you guys are thinking. U guys are probably thinking that I am lil crazy. but i am not i just show alot of love for my animals and i get attach to them. Like their my kids. Just writing this is bring tears to my eyes,its bringing back memories of my baby boy.I am sorry. I had to get this off my chest. R.I.P CENA MICHEAL I LOVE YOU <3 you never died in my heart<3 PLEASE NO MEAN OR RUDE COMMENTS. But I wanted to know any of you lose a pet that was close to you and feel the same that it is hurt to let go. thanks

Public Comments

1. Being there when they gave the overdose of anesthetic on the last two of ours who went (cancer, cardiomyopathy) was some of the hardest moments I've ever had. I'm over 50, that says a lot.
2. My uncle shot my baby dobie when he was just 9 mo old and I was only 8 and I had to go through that and watch him die right in front of me, just bleeding to death with his looking up at me like please help and what could i do but cry? It still make me mad today because my uncle is such a tard, he thinks my dog tried to attack him but he was only playing, dobies just play rough. It will eventually get better. It takes time, just like losing any loved one.
3. losing something you love will always be hard especially when it is a pet. I know because i lost a rabbit and it was really hard for me to get over it. But over time things will get better.
4. I had to find a home for my hand raised goat and i miss him so much he was more like a pet dog but i have two does now and one just kidded amd i have to raise that because the mum doesn't want it i feel so bad for the kid and it makes me think of the other one even more
5. Losing a pet is hard.:-( I had a dog and we had two chooses... Put her to sleep or give her a surgery that might not work, I picked put to sleep because she was in pain and I knew it was her time to go. :-) I cried a lot but after a year I got over it and got a knew pet. R.I.P Chris Dog
6. I was 8 years old when i conviced my parents to let me get a dog. Our neighbors dog had puppies with my best friends dog. She was a springa-poo (Springer spaniel/poodle mix)..We loved her..she was insanely smart. We lived in baltimore, and we got mice every now and then. She seen them enough and knew what they were called. If I said "Pepsi (her name) theres a mouse!!" She would run to every corner of our house and sniff. It was adorable. She knew over 12 tricks. If I pointed my finger at her (like a gun) and said "BANG BANG!!" She would act like she got shot and play dead. She knew peoples names in the house. If i said "Pepsi wheres mommy and daddy??" She would look around, and if they werent in the house she would take her paws and spread the curtains open and look out the window. Anyways, the year we moved to Pennslvania, I was 18. She was 8. She had been having ear problems and scabs forming on her and lumps under her chin. When we took her to the vet up in PA for the first time, they diagnosed her with lymphoma. We had to put her down, because she couldnt breath barely anymore. Im crying as Im writing this, but just remember, there IS a doggy, or in your case, kitty heaven. They are looking down on us and are in no more pain ! Use pictures and create a collage to keep the memories alive. On Pepsi's birthday, I always wish her a happy birthday and do something in memory of her. Sorry for your Cena, but remember, your not a bad person if you get another pet or anything, because your not replacing him, your just replacing the void in your heart. God Bless!!
7. she know's you've been the best for her.. everytime i remember my hammies who passed away, they always make me cry...