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Am, i weird???? What is wrong with me?

Now, i think something is wrong with me. Seriously, i do some weird stuff. At school, i am picked on sometimes. I am overweight and i have never even kissed a girl before. I do have a group of people that I hang with at school, but i'm not sure if i am not just a tag along. I get bullied. I am now a sophmore. I have gone to three schools my elementry school which was kindergarten through 8th grade but i left in the middle of 7th grade because of bullying and mean and abusive teachers and then i went to a soley middle school which was public and very bad, the first week of that school i bought a huge blank book like a journal and in each page i would right personal information that i discovered about each student and their weakness. So i would have thier background and weaknesses. Fears...I called it my book of shadows because it kinda was similar to the book of shadows on the show Charmed. In 8th grade, i left the school because i got sick and i stayed home for the rest of the year and recieved my diploma. Now that i am in high school in freshman year i started another book of shadows which was bigger and longer than the first. and i even had pictures on each page of the student. and their background and weaknesses. Since i am now in sophmore year, i am trying to be more mature. I don't understand why i do this. I have used it to torture people who were mean to me. use thier weaknesses against them. Its kinda convient to just flip a page and find the solution to a problem. Well, a couple of days ago my mom found both under my bed. Instead of being made or anything she was really shocked she then went to her room and came back with a small book. And It was hand made and made up of construction paper. i looked through it and realized it was like a book of shadows of my elementry school classmates. My mom told me that i made that in 3rd grade. And must have forgot about it. Is this weird that i did it again?? like dejavu? what is wrong with me. Please help.

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1. Hmm... I don't think it's weird. I think it's pretty smart actually. Good pay back to those a**holes that treat you badly.
2. that is a little scary and i no people have been cruel to u but if u r mean to them u r no better than them wat goes around comes around let God handle it and i think u need to c a therapist
3. There is nothing wrong with you mate. Everyone's different... Many people do stuff like that.
4. That's really weird but kind of cool. We all do strange things at times and that's just your way to deal with people. If you stop doing it you might have a harder time dealing with social situations. I think your fine. It's not hurting you. It's helping you. It's not really hurting any one either. You may grow out of it too.
5. ur turning emo
6. Your not on your own, I've heard of others doing this...
7. Depending on how you get this information about them, could be either creepy or some sort of mental therapy to help you cope with all the bullying. If you listen to their conversations and stalk them, steal their notes then its creppy and you should see a psychitrist if you happen to notice their weakness by certain things they do then i think its fine and its just a way to cope with your bullying.
8. Woah. Your not weird. Your a freaking genius ! I'm making a book of shadows now. ^-^
9. No- not weird- you just found a way to deal with all that stuff. If you want to try something different and not so negative- try writing down something that you find good in them- even though they are mean. You might find yourself dealing with things differently ;)
10. i mean its pretty weird but no harm no foul. theres much worse things you could do.